It's cold in northern California! That's just not right! The sky is gray and it's 10:30 in the morning. It's August, it's summer!!! Why is it cold. Luckily my daughter told me to bring some long pants, and well I would have brought one pair for sure, but I brought 2 pairs of levis, and a pair of light sweats that were for lounging in the evening, but may become part of my "go outside" wear ha ha. Yesterday I wore levis almost all day, did I mention it's August!!??
So I'm happy to be with my daughter. She will be 29 tomorrow and we can just talk non stop. She always has so much going on. And they'll have Danica, who's 4 I think, for the next few days...they have half custody I think, and I'm looking forward to that. Did I mention it's cold here? Yesterday I got almost all my errands done; tshirts, socks & underwear for hubby, so today is open for my "procedure". I am nervous, tryin' hard not to be. I have a pill I have to take an hour before, it's called somthing "pan"..you know those drugs that end in "pan" are always the anxiety drugs...ha ha maybe I should take it now. Just kidding, but I take that and 2 vicodins at 12:45, so in a couple of hours. Then I have to be there half hour ahead of the procedure, and she's gonna give me even more drugs...so of course now I'm thinking- wow is this going to hurt??
I don't want Drew to be scared, so I'm writing this instead of telling her. We laughed about mom being looped on pain meds...and I told that I'm good with the first vicodin, but when the second dose comes I usually throw up. This is a good thing...all I need is to fall in love with pain meds, right? I am an alcoholic in recovery with 12 years sober. I am in Alcoholics Anonymous, and I am grateful that pain meds make me sick! I'll take the first couple of doses then change to asprin unless I'm really in a lot of pain, but if that happens I'll probly call the doctor anyway cause I think I shouldn't be feeling too bad by tomorrow. What I really want to know if when will I hear the results? I mean the results that got me to here took almost 3 months...but I understand that now they know what they're looking for...
Yeah or maybe this is because I filed a grievance against the health insurance company for the last bill they sent me for $990!! To read..yeah- TO READ a pathology report that said I was fine. I file a grievance saying they insisted I have this test, it should be covered...then a few weeks later the doctor emails me and says, oh I got a call from UCSF where I sent your labs for a "double check" and they think you should have this procedure.....so...what? Now will I get another bill for that double check test? Interesting that I haven't...the health insurance companies are SO full of shit. I know I've said this before...but it's all bullshit. The drug manufacturers and the insurance companies just bleed us dry. Since living in Mexico I can see this is the case. Yes I came back to Calif for this procedure, and it will use up my deductible so if I do have cancer or this hyper plasia or anything else and need treatment, it will be covered (free)...at least until Dec 31. But I know the results are going to say I'm fine. Maybe the Afforable Heathcare plan is not perfect, but you can change or improve something if you don't start. You can't just say it's broke and not try to fix it. So we'll see what comes next. I'm happy about the new plans rolling out, even though there are things I may not like- for example, I don't live in the U.S- will I be fined if I don't have insurance? There are millions of Americans not living in the U.S...so how will this work?
Ok enough of that. My beautiful hubby just called to tell me he loves me and not to worry. He updated me on Lucky- the new puppy who has been so itchy, and the new vet he took him to, and that he likes this guy. I told him how cold it is here and I'm ready to come home. Oh and now the sky is actually beginning to turn blue...yippee.
At 7am I went to an AA meeting down the street and man it was cold. They have it every morning so I'll try to go again before I go home. I ended up seeing someone I know and that was funny since I thought I was so anonymous here in Santa Rosa since I'm from a town a couple of town south...But my daughter has hot water and I took a wonderful shower. I'm gonna tell Poppi that we need to fill up the propane for the hot water, even if I just use it once in a while. I didn't know I missed a hot shower until I took one ha ha!! So time to get dressed again (after the meeting and the shower I reverted back to pajamas), and get ready to go. I also need to call my friends that are renting our house so I can stop by there, I guess maybe tomorrow or Thursday. Tomorrow I'm taking my daughter for a pedicure and a massage for her birthday...since I'm counting on feeling fine...power of positive thinking, right?
So I arrived about 7pm to San Francisco Sunday evening, had a wonderful Arabic dinner at my ex husband's- his wife is also Palestinian and also a great cook! They were so nice and came and picked me up at the airport, then Drew and her fiance met us at their house for dinner- then we came up here to Santa Rosa and went to bed.. After running around yesterday my younger daughter showed up here and we went to dinner, hopefully I'll see her again today. She's 20 and man do we clash! She and I had an unfortunate argument last nite at dinner, she accused me of "not motivating her enough" when she was in high school to go to college. She was also accusing her dad- not just me. Ha ha ha ha ha!! Please don't play such a pathetic victim card with me. We supported you in everything you did, always wanted you to go to college, thought it might even be on a soccer scholarship, ah but you have to keep your grades up to play on the school team....hmmm she was not interested in school and barely graduated...those were interesting battles as well...anyway too much emotional baggage to go into this right now...but bottom line, you want to go to school- then go. You don't want to go, then don't. You're a grown up- figure it out. I love my daughter, but honestly will be happy when she gets a little older and gets her spoiled head out of her ass. Sorry but this morning I only have truth in me.
So time to put on my own big girl panties, get dressed and go. Drew is almost ready and she always takes the longest ha ha. Well this was truly a dear diary day....
Mexico fun fact:
Only ten countries in the world have a larger population than Mexico’s 109,955,400 million people.
So I'm happy to be with my daughter. She will be 29 tomorrow and we can just talk non stop. She always has so much going on. And they'll have Danica, who's 4 I think, for the next few days...they have half custody I think, and I'm looking forward to that. Did I mention it's cold here? Yesterday I got almost all my errands done; tshirts, socks & underwear for hubby, so today is open for my "procedure". I am nervous, tryin' hard not to be. I have a pill I have to take an hour before, it's called somthing "pan"..you know those drugs that end in "pan" are always the anxiety drugs...ha ha maybe I should take it now. Just kidding, but I take that and 2 vicodins at 12:45, so in a couple of hours. Then I have to be there half hour ahead of the procedure, and she's gonna give me even more drugs...so of course now I'm thinking- wow is this going to hurt??
I don't want Drew to be scared, so I'm writing this instead of telling her. We laughed about mom being looped on pain meds...and I told that I'm good with the first vicodin, but when the second dose comes I usually throw up. This is a good thing...all I need is to fall in love with pain meds, right? I am an alcoholic in recovery with 12 years sober. I am in Alcoholics Anonymous, and I am grateful that pain meds make me sick! I'll take the first couple of doses then change to asprin unless I'm really in a lot of pain, but if that happens I'll probly call the doctor anyway cause I think I shouldn't be feeling too bad by tomorrow. What I really want to know if when will I hear the results? I mean the results that got me to here took almost 3 months...but I understand that now they know what they're looking for...
Yeah or maybe this is because I filed a grievance against the health insurance company for the last bill they sent me for $990!! To read..yeah- TO READ a pathology report that said I was fine. I file a grievance saying they insisted I have this test, it should be covered...then a few weeks later the doctor emails me and says, oh I got a call from UCSF where I sent your labs for a "double check" and they think you should have this procedure.....so...what? Now will I get another bill for that double check test? Interesting that I haven't...the health insurance companies are SO full of shit. I know I've said this before...but it's all bullshit. The drug manufacturers and the insurance companies just bleed us dry. Since living in Mexico I can see this is the case. Yes I came back to Calif for this procedure, and it will use up my deductible so if I do have cancer or this hyper plasia or anything else and need treatment, it will be covered (free)...at least until Dec 31. But I know the results are going to say I'm fine. Maybe the Afforable Heathcare plan is not perfect, but you can change or improve something if you don't start. You can't just say it's broke and not try to fix it. So we'll see what comes next. I'm happy about the new plans rolling out, even though there are things I may not like- for example, I don't live in the U.S- will I be fined if I don't have insurance? There are millions of Americans not living in the U.S...so how will this work?
Ok enough of that. My beautiful hubby just called to tell me he loves me and not to worry. He updated me on Lucky- the new puppy who has been so itchy, and the new vet he took him to, and that he likes this guy. I told him how cold it is here and I'm ready to come home. Oh and now the sky is actually beginning to turn blue...yippee.
At 7am I went to an AA meeting down the street and man it was cold. They have it every morning so I'll try to go again before I go home. I ended up seeing someone I know and that was funny since I thought I was so anonymous here in Santa Rosa since I'm from a town a couple of town south...But my daughter has hot water and I took a wonderful shower. I'm gonna tell Poppi that we need to fill up the propane for the hot water, even if I just use it once in a while. I didn't know I missed a hot shower until I took one ha ha!! So time to get dressed again (after the meeting and the shower I reverted back to pajamas), and get ready to go. I also need to call my friends that are renting our house so I can stop by there, I guess maybe tomorrow or Thursday. Tomorrow I'm taking my daughter for a pedicure and a massage for her birthday...since I'm counting on feeling fine...power of positive thinking, right?
So I arrived about 7pm to San Francisco Sunday evening, had a wonderful Arabic dinner at my ex husband's- his wife is also Palestinian and also a great cook! They were so nice and came and picked me up at the airport, then Drew and her fiance met us at their house for dinner- then we came up here to Santa Rosa and went to bed.. After running around yesterday my younger daughter showed up here and we went to dinner, hopefully I'll see her again today. She's 20 and man do we clash! She and I had an unfortunate argument last nite at dinner, she accused me of "not motivating her enough" when she was in high school to go to college. She was also accusing her dad- not just me. Ha ha ha ha ha!! Please don't play such a pathetic victim card with me. We supported you in everything you did, always wanted you to go to college, thought it might even be on a soccer scholarship, ah but you have to keep your grades up to play on the school team....hmmm she was not interested in school and barely graduated...those were interesting battles as well...anyway too much emotional baggage to go into this right now...but bottom line, you want to go to school- then go. You don't want to go, then don't. You're a grown up- figure it out. I love my daughter, but honestly will be happy when she gets a little older and gets her spoiled head out of her ass. Sorry but this morning I only have truth in me.
So time to put on my own big girl panties, get dressed and go. Drew is almost ready and she always takes the longest ha ha. Well this was truly a dear diary day....
Mexico fun fact:
Only ten countries in the world have a larger population than Mexico’s 109,955,400 million people.
