OMG!!
So I got home a little while ago and the sun was a huge fiery orange
ball at the mouth of the bay..when I walked past the house I could see a
big fishing boat passing right in front of it..the kind that look like a
tug boat in front and a long back...so beautiful. Then, much closer to
shore (and to me) I see dolphins...first 2, then 4...Pelicans swooping
in so I know there's fish. I yell to Everardo,
who grabs his fishing pole and gets down to the beach and walks into
the surf. The sunset is pinks and oranges, the sun dipped below the
water...it's getting dark, and...more dolphins..some right near him. Of
course then Sam swam out and watching in the diminishing light, the
silhouette of the man, his fishing pole and his dog coming into shore.
Overwhelming how beautiful life is and how suddenly we are reminded of
it! Viva!
I wrote the paragraph above a couple of days ago on my facebook page. The weather is so nice that sitting outside as the sun goes down is becoming a 'best part of the day' thing. The next morning when I woke up the dolphins had been out there fora couple of hours. I sat with my coffee, mesmerized...the neighbor said they come every day during the summer. Then yesterday afternoon, we had just come back from Ensenada and there were a couple of them and they seemed to be playing....jumping up and swimming in circles. Yeah they were probably fishing but I like to think they were playing. A little later Everardo and Sam & Hazel went down to the water for a swim....and the dolphins showed back up! He called to me to come so I threw on my suit and ran down to the water....we waded way out- the water is shallow for a long way....ha ha this is where I should be saying AND THEN WE SWAM WITH THE DOLPHINS.... wrong. We didn't. But it was still one of the coolest things I've ever done!! We were maybe 50-75 yards away from where one was swimming back and forth.
So maybe this is going to be the summer of the dolphins eh? I'm good with that. We've been back and forth to Ensenada almost every day during the past week, lovely road construction, and every day life, so a some dolphin action is good.
I'm going to the states in a couple of days, for a couple of weeks. I'm so excited to see my daughters! And Danica- my soon to be granddaughter (official after the wedding- but what the hell she's mine NOW), asked me on the phone to go on her school field trip! YES YES I'll go! And the icing on the cake is that it's to Armstrong Woods which is a grove of redwood trees that I love and was already planning to visit while I'm there. I like to rub the trees and just breathe them in. And we're goin' on the school bus...oh boy a bunch of kindergartners on the bus....
Well I'm getting ready to go, have little gifts for all, plan to spend as much of my time as I can with my kids, and see just a couple of friends. I had more to write about, but I'm really distracted- I keep stopping my writing here so I can add to my "to do" list....so what's swirling in my head would be boring to read.
I just hope I remember to take this peaceful place with me; that I don't fall into old habits -like resentment when I see my little sister...ok tiny bit of sarcasm...yeah she actually agreed to come out of her hobbit hole and come to a bbq at my daughter's this coming Friday nite. I'm pretty surprised since she hasn't replied to a single message I've sent her over the last 9 months or so. Her husband's had some pretty serious medical issues, but I hear it from her kid- the one who lived with us for a year- and I wrote to her to try to be a sister and support, maybe comfort...nada. And my other brother in law is not in the greatest shape either, so I wrote and asked her about taking a trip with me in the fall to see them...no answer. Yeah yeah I know-acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. So what does that mean when I see her? I just act like nothing? Like she didn't blow me off continually when I reached out to her? hmmm maybe yes, I just accept, visit with her, but remember that afterwards....zero. Well something like that, but I do know I have to let go of resentment, and not try to push at her to communicate with me. I need to share my life with people who want to be in my life. Too bad our relationship sucks. But I am very happy that I'm now very close to my older sister, and closer to my brother than I've ever been.
Did I say I'm going to get the word acceptance tattooed on my arm? I'm also going to get a penguin with his flippers raised up saying "oh well" to honor my mom and her name underneath. I'm also going to see my sponsor Veronica who I love, and my old sponsor but always my very close friend Scott. His wife was diagnosed after me, with a much worse cancer, and she has been going thru stem cell transplants. I really am not sure how she's doing- Scott doesn't write about it, but he'll tell me in person. It's funny (funny strange not funny ha ha) that right after I found out I had breast cancer 2 of my guy friend's wives were diagnosed with other types of cancer, and one passed away already, the other with cancer of the blood I think and is doing the stem cell transplants of her own stem cells. So as it turns out- I was the lucky one....Weird eh? Yes, in 3 days I have a mammogram- last year I became very anxious as the date drew near, but this year I am not afraid. This will mark 5 years cancer free. So I will tell everyone I love that I love them, and hug everybody really hard. I will walk Cookie, Drew's dog, and talk to the universe and remember how grateful I am for my life and everyone in it. Not sure if I'll write here or not, but will for sure report on the trip when I get back.
Viva
I wrote the paragraph above a couple of days ago on my facebook page. The weather is so nice that sitting outside as the sun goes down is becoming a 'best part of the day' thing. The next morning when I woke up the dolphins had been out there fora couple of hours. I sat with my coffee, mesmerized...the neighbor said they come every day during the summer. Then yesterday afternoon, we had just come back from Ensenada and there were a couple of them and they seemed to be playing....jumping up and swimming in circles. Yeah they were probably fishing but I like to think they were playing. A little later Everardo and Sam & Hazel went down to the water for a swim....and the dolphins showed back up! He called to me to come so I threw on my suit and ran down to the water....we waded way out- the water is shallow for a long way....ha ha this is where I should be saying AND THEN WE SWAM WITH THE DOLPHINS.... wrong. We didn't. But it was still one of the coolest things I've ever done!! We were maybe 50-75 yards away from where one was swimming back and forth.
So maybe this is going to be the summer of the dolphins eh? I'm good with that. We've been back and forth to Ensenada almost every day during the past week, lovely road construction, and every day life, so a some dolphin action is good.
I'm going to the states in a couple of days, for a couple of weeks. I'm so excited to see my daughters! And Danica- my soon to be granddaughter (official after the wedding- but what the hell she's mine NOW), asked me on the phone to go on her school field trip! YES YES I'll go! And the icing on the cake is that it's to Armstrong Woods which is a grove of redwood trees that I love and was already planning to visit while I'm there. I like to rub the trees and just breathe them in. And we're goin' on the school bus...oh boy a bunch of kindergartners on the bus....
Well I'm getting ready to go, have little gifts for all, plan to spend as much of my time as I can with my kids, and see just a couple of friends. I had more to write about, but I'm really distracted- I keep stopping my writing here so I can add to my "to do" list....so what's swirling in my head would be boring to read.
I just hope I remember to take this peaceful place with me; that I don't fall into old habits -like resentment when I see my little sister...ok tiny bit of sarcasm...yeah she actually agreed to come out of her hobbit hole and come to a bbq at my daughter's this coming Friday nite. I'm pretty surprised since she hasn't replied to a single message I've sent her over the last 9 months or so. Her husband's had some pretty serious medical issues, but I hear it from her kid- the one who lived with us for a year- and I wrote to her to try to be a sister and support, maybe comfort...nada. And my other brother in law is not in the greatest shape either, so I wrote and asked her about taking a trip with me in the fall to see them...no answer. Yeah yeah I know-acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. So what does that mean when I see her? I just act like nothing? Like she didn't blow me off continually when I reached out to her? hmmm maybe yes, I just accept, visit with her, but remember that afterwards....zero. Well something like that, but I do know I have to let go of resentment, and not try to push at her to communicate with me. I need to share my life with people who want to be in my life. Too bad our relationship sucks. But I am very happy that I'm now very close to my older sister, and closer to my brother than I've ever been.
Did I say I'm going to get the word acceptance tattooed on my arm? I'm also going to get a penguin with his flippers raised up saying "oh well" to honor my mom and her name underneath. I'm also going to see my sponsor Veronica who I love, and my old sponsor but always my very close friend Scott. His wife was diagnosed after me, with a much worse cancer, and she has been going thru stem cell transplants. I really am not sure how she's doing- Scott doesn't write about it, but he'll tell me in person. It's funny (funny strange not funny ha ha) that right after I found out I had breast cancer 2 of my guy friend's wives were diagnosed with other types of cancer, and one passed away already, the other with cancer of the blood I think and is doing the stem cell transplants of her own stem cells. So as it turns out- I was the lucky one....Weird eh? Yes, in 3 days I have a mammogram- last year I became very anxious as the date drew near, but this year I am not afraid. This will mark 5 years cancer free. So I will tell everyone I love that I love them, and hug everybody really hard. I will walk Cookie, Drew's dog, and talk to the universe and remember how grateful I am for my life and everyone in it. Not sure if I'll write here or not, but will for sure report on the trip when I get back.
Viva
