It's Wednesday morning and I go home tomorrow. Yippee. Monday was nice. Had lunch with my friends who rent our house. Again I gotta say I'm so happy they are taking care of or house- it looks so good- inside and out. Kay made her famous chicken pot pie and I gorged on it. I picked up my prescriptions for the next day and spent some time with my best gal pal, Sherren.
Then met my younger daughter for dinner at the restaurant where she works; Central Market. It's a really nice place and everybody there loves her. That's nice, and ha ha a nice reflection on me- I mean I did have something to do with how she turned out. She's very "up", happy and enthusiastic...and she got that from me. We ate like pigs cause we ordered everything- salad, pate, entre of braised beef ribs with scalloped potatoes and dessert! I think we rolled out of there. BUt the important part was how happy she was to show me her environment, to introduce me, to talk about the menu, and then everything else going on in her life. Some of it I missed cause I was thinking about what a wonderful adult she is becoming. Very articulate, interested in the world around her, planning to save it all of course ha ha. I am so proud of both of my daughters!
I'm staying with the other one, and I love her house, and how she has it. I mean I like her taste in furniture and art, the simplicity or minimalist way she does not have every corner filled up with things, it's so clean, somethings I can't find haha. But it's a beautiful place, and the all the windows and high ceilings make it feel spacious and she has nice views. A really comfortable back yard, sections-which I like, a patio, grass, picnic table, etc. And out the front some vacant lots across the street so it stays open. This is the first day I've stayed home, and I'm comfy on the couch in front of the tv, I had some scrambled eggs, and np plans to get up for at least a couple of hours.
Drewy is asleep upstairs after working 6pm to 6am. Ouch. I am praying she gets the job she just applied for; this working nites is so hard on the body and the mind. And she works 12 hour shifts. Ouch again. It's gray outside and I am ready for the Mexico sun! I have enjoyed myself but am ready to go home. If my girls would just move to Mexico life would be perfect ha ha! I'm kidding- kinda. They have their own lives to live and I am so excited to watch for what comes next with them. Drewy is planning a wedding for next summer- and she's going the traditional route. Big ceremony with bridesmaids and a beautiful venue (not chosen yet but talking about stained glass churches and/or wineries with chapels or gorgeous outdoor settings. I heard my niece and Drew's best friend talking about bridesmaid dresses and other bridesmaid duties. Her fiance is a good man- we like him very much. He is caring and loving, strong and calm, a rock for Drewy, who sometimes is too much like her mama, getting all wrapped around the axle about stuff. He's very patient, and just an all around good guy. We couldn't be happier with her choice. They have a nice life. Hopefully they are coming to visit us over 4th of July. I will become an instant Grandma since Rex has a 4yr old daughter, Danica, who lives with them half time. Last nite she waited up for me to get home and we "worked" on the computer. She said sentences (messages to Everardo) while typing keys- it was pretty funny. She wanted me to show her how to look thru photos and look at different things, and we had a good time until she had to go to bed. Family.
Ok more family- Halla told me about a young woman she sees at school- at the JC, and she said she thought she looked like her cousins Stephanie and Jessica. Somehow this girl asked Halla how she knew Sarah, their sister. (she must have seen Halla on the computer with Sarah). So Halla tells her Sarah is her cousin. The girl says Step and Jess are her cousins! So we find more family. I keep saying ya can't have enough family who loves you! Now we add Elena to the mix, and my daughters have a new sister. Not to mention the probly hundreds of cousins from Everardo's side of the family down in Gilroy!
Life just gets better and better. My life is....nice. I am very happy. I came up here to see my daughters and go to the dr for my yearly check to see if my breast cancer came back- it did NOT, and I found out some things, about myself. I have changed some. In a good way at least in my opinion ha ha. I really have developed more patience, and I am...well..just more calm. A few friends saw that in me, I mean they commented that I was different, happier in a calm way. I think it's acceptance. Of me, and of whatever's around me. I am learning something I know to be true, but sometimes I know something intellectually but maybe not emotionally- I mean really feeling it as a part of me, not a conclusion of thought after facing something. That I am ok. That things other people say to me or about me, do not affect me in ANY way, unless I choose to be affected. If someone says I'm selfish or mean, it does not mean that I am. Their perception is their business. If someone says I'm fat or ugly- it does make it so. (ha ha of course when they say positive things they are all true..ha ha just kidding)
I can take info in, see if it applies, and if not, discard it, If so, maybe it's an invitation for me to work on a character defect. But I am responsible, I can affect and/or change anything from the tip of my nose back in. I am not change anything beyond the end of my nose. I recently heard a guy says he goes by the hula hoop theory. That when you have a hula hoop around you, you can change what's inside the hoop and nothing outside the hoop. When I have a problem, the first place I need to look is inside myself. Really coming to this place of acceptance is huge for me.
I am the "I'm not good enough" type- so I always think I need to work harder, be thinner, prettier, smarter, sexier, just plan "better" and that's just not true. You know, employers loved me! I was always going for the next pat on the back- and 2 seconds later working for it again. I was always motivated. I still am, but for better reasons. It's taken years to get to here. I've known for quite some time, in my head, that those negative things were not true, but deep down, in my heart somewhere I always worried that they were true. Man I am a slow learner! I am ok exactly how I am. Of course I can always improve things, learn things, exercise more, eat healthier, be more in service to others, I think we all can do those things, but I am perfect right here right now.
So it took coming back here, back home to see some of this. Some I already knew, I just didn't think anybody else knew ha ha. And home- well home is where my husband and my dog are, where my heart is. I'm not done in Puerto Penasco- with what? I'm not sure...I want to become fluent and I believe I'm on my way, I LOVE my English class and students, and I know I'm not done there. And who knows how I might get involved in other ways at the center.
What will I feel when I get back to my Mexican home? I know Everardo is happy there. And wait until he see all the beads I scored for him! Well he's kinda seen them on skype, but it's much more impressive in person ha ha! I wonder if my Spanish will take a big turn to the better? I mean I have been studying hard, and then almost no Spanish for 2 weeks, except once in a store and then the ladt who was cleaning a friend's house chatted away with me.
So-Monday, to finish up Monday, I did a quick pre-pack pack to be sure all my stuff would fit in my 2 suitcases. Yeah- I grabbed my smaller suitcase from the loft in the F Street house along with some shoes and a couple of warm sweaters. Well the answer was HELL NO! I had way to much stuff. Even if I used the duffel bag type bag for a carry on, no way it would all fit- I mean the ba-zillion beads alone. So I decided to send a box UPS. Actually it will arrive today, to an address in Arizona, not Mexico...It's a friend who makes the trip constantly and will bring it down to me. It's most of the beads, shoes and sweaters....It weighed a little less than 50lbs is my guess, since I can barley life over 50lbs and I was carrying this. $34- that's pretty good I thought. Definitely worth the drop in stress! Go UPS! I had given about half the beads to Halla- all the plastic ones, but she told me yesterday that she still had most of them in her car and what the hell was she going to do with them. She had given away the ones she planned to, and kept the ones she wanted. Well I sent a msg to Karen at the community center, and asked if they wanted some beads. They make a lot of different things to sell at little wknd markets, things that bring money to women who otherwise might have nothing. I am not creative at all, so I'm not really involved with that side of things and didn't know if they'd want the beads. I just have the people who want to learn English. But she said yes of course- pls send them! She also said my students were excited for me to come back! Yippe cause I'm excited to see them, too! So I think I can fit everything into my suitcases now, so I'm ready to go.
A little tired and worse for wear after yesterday. Yesterday- yuck! I had to have my little procedure. Did I say yuck? It was quick and relatively painless. hmm relative to what? They gave me 3 pills to take beforehand. One was different than the other two. Anyway they gave me a fuzzy head. They were to relieve any anxiety...and they did. My beautiful friend Ramilia took me to the appt- cause I had to take the meds an hour before, and needed to have a ride home, so Ramilia took me and brought me home. An she is an angle. My nurse and my mom! I got to her house and she had cooked for me even tho' I said pls don't, I'll have a sandwhich. Then she had a room ready for me to spend the nite if I didn't feel well after! So we went over, and she came into the appt with me. She held my hand and asked the doctor questions- she was amazing! I was a little looped and so wasn't thinking of any questions. Afterwards we went back to her house and she put me to bed, I wanted to just lay on the couch but she led me to a bedroom. I passed out immediately for over 2 hours! When I got up her hubby was home- I'm also friends with him- and they were eating dinner, so she made me a plate. We ate and talked and laughed. We promised to talk more, and I made her promise to visit me in Mexico. And if hubby is too busy working, then I want just her to come. We have a connection and I think we could sit on the beach and talk for a million hours.
So I got home before I took any more pain pills. I was feeling kinda crappy. Then I took the perescribed qty 2 of the pain pills- I think they're vicodin, they're called "narco", and about an hour later I puked. Yeah that's what pain pills do for me. I'm good on the first dose...and being an addictive type ha ha, look forward to the second dose, and then I always get sick to my stomach. This morning I feel better, but tired. I made a plan to go see my 2 girlfriends Holly & Delores from the dog park, just for a coffee, and maybe nothing else, and then after being up awhile- decided I'm tired. So the last day is the first day I'm not up and out of the house by 9 or 10am. It's almost noon, and I'm in a tshirt and sweats. I made some scrambled eggs for my icky tummy and sat down to write.
I'm hoping this afternoon that Drew, Halla & I are going to go and see Elena once more. That would be great. And she turned 16 yesterday...oooh maybe there's cake haha! Oh maybe we should bring cake...ok it's enough for now. My next post will probly be from home...my Mexico.
As always...viva!
Then met my younger daughter for dinner at the restaurant where she works; Central Market. It's a really nice place and everybody there loves her. That's nice, and ha ha a nice reflection on me- I mean I did have something to do with how she turned out. She's very "up", happy and enthusiastic...and she got that from me. We ate like pigs cause we ordered everything- salad, pate, entre of braised beef ribs with scalloped potatoes and dessert! I think we rolled out of there. BUt the important part was how happy she was to show me her environment, to introduce me, to talk about the menu, and then everything else going on in her life. Some of it I missed cause I was thinking about what a wonderful adult she is becoming. Very articulate, interested in the world around her, planning to save it all of course ha ha. I am so proud of both of my daughters!
I'm staying with the other one, and I love her house, and how she has it. I mean I like her taste in furniture and art, the simplicity or minimalist way she does not have every corner filled up with things, it's so clean, somethings I can't find haha. But it's a beautiful place, and the all the windows and high ceilings make it feel spacious and she has nice views. A really comfortable back yard, sections-which I like, a patio, grass, picnic table, etc. And out the front some vacant lots across the street so it stays open. This is the first day I've stayed home, and I'm comfy on the couch in front of the tv, I had some scrambled eggs, and np plans to get up for at least a couple of hours.
Drewy is asleep upstairs after working 6pm to 6am. Ouch. I am praying she gets the job she just applied for; this working nites is so hard on the body and the mind. And she works 12 hour shifts. Ouch again. It's gray outside and I am ready for the Mexico sun! I have enjoyed myself but am ready to go home. If my girls would just move to Mexico life would be perfect ha ha! I'm kidding- kinda. They have their own lives to live and I am so excited to watch for what comes next with them. Drewy is planning a wedding for next summer- and she's going the traditional route. Big ceremony with bridesmaids and a beautiful venue (not chosen yet but talking about stained glass churches and/or wineries with chapels or gorgeous outdoor settings. I heard my niece and Drew's best friend talking about bridesmaid dresses and other bridesmaid duties. Her fiance is a good man- we like him very much. He is caring and loving, strong and calm, a rock for Drewy, who sometimes is too much like her mama, getting all wrapped around the axle about stuff. He's very patient, and just an all around good guy. We couldn't be happier with her choice. They have a nice life. Hopefully they are coming to visit us over 4th of July. I will become an instant Grandma since Rex has a 4yr old daughter, Danica, who lives with them half time. Last nite she waited up for me to get home and we "worked" on the computer. She said sentences (messages to Everardo) while typing keys- it was pretty funny. She wanted me to show her how to look thru photos and look at different things, and we had a good time until she had to go to bed. Family.
Ok more family- Halla told me about a young woman she sees at school- at the JC, and she said she thought she looked like her cousins Stephanie and Jessica. Somehow this girl asked Halla how she knew Sarah, their sister. (she must have seen Halla on the computer with Sarah). So Halla tells her Sarah is her cousin. The girl says Step and Jess are her cousins! So we find more family. I keep saying ya can't have enough family who loves you! Now we add Elena to the mix, and my daughters have a new sister. Not to mention the probly hundreds of cousins from Everardo's side of the family down in Gilroy!
Life just gets better and better. My life is....nice. I am very happy. I came up here to see my daughters and go to the dr for my yearly check to see if my breast cancer came back- it did NOT, and I found out some things, about myself. I have changed some. In a good way at least in my opinion ha ha. I really have developed more patience, and I am...well..just more calm. A few friends saw that in me, I mean they commented that I was different, happier in a calm way. I think it's acceptance. Of me, and of whatever's around me. I am learning something I know to be true, but sometimes I know something intellectually but maybe not emotionally- I mean really feeling it as a part of me, not a conclusion of thought after facing something. That I am ok. That things other people say to me or about me, do not affect me in ANY way, unless I choose to be affected. If someone says I'm selfish or mean, it does not mean that I am. Their perception is their business. If someone says I'm fat or ugly- it does make it so. (ha ha of course when they say positive things they are all true..ha ha just kidding)
I can take info in, see if it applies, and if not, discard it, If so, maybe it's an invitation for me to work on a character defect. But I am responsible, I can affect and/or change anything from the tip of my nose back in. I am not change anything beyond the end of my nose. I recently heard a guy says he goes by the hula hoop theory. That when you have a hula hoop around you, you can change what's inside the hoop and nothing outside the hoop. When I have a problem, the first place I need to look is inside myself. Really coming to this place of acceptance is huge for me.
I am the "I'm not good enough" type- so I always think I need to work harder, be thinner, prettier, smarter, sexier, just plan "better" and that's just not true. You know, employers loved me! I was always going for the next pat on the back- and 2 seconds later working for it again. I was always motivated. I still am, but for better reasons. It's taken years to get to here. I've known for quite some time, in my head, that those negative things were not true, but deep down, in my heart somewhere I always worried that they were true. Man I am a slow learner! I am ok exactly how I am. Of course I can always improve things, learn things, exercise more, eat healthier, be more in service to others, I think we all can do those things, but I am perfect right here right now.
So it took coming back here, back home to see some of this. Some I already knew, I just didn't think anybody else knew ha ha. And home- well home is where my husband and my dog are, where my heart is. I'm not done in Puerto Penasco- with what? I'm not sure...I want to become fluent and I believe I'm on my way, I LOVE my English class and students, and I know I'm not done there. And who knows how I might get involved in other ways at the center.
What will I feel when I get back to my Mexican home? I know Everardo is happy there. And wait until he see all the beads I scored for him! Well he's kinda seen them on skype, but it's much more impressive in person ha ha! I wonder if my Spanish will take a big turn to the better? I mean I have been studying hard, and then almost no Spanish for 2 weeks, except once in a store and then the ladt who was cleaning a friend's house chatted away with me.
So-Monday, to finish up Monday, I did a quick pre-pack pack to be sure all my stuff would fit in my 2 suitcases. Yeah- I grabbed my smaller suitcase from the loft in the F Street house along with some shoes and a couple of warm sweaters. Well the answer was HELL NO! I had way to much stuff. Even if I used the duffel bag type bag for a carry on, no way it would all fit- I mean the ba-zillion beads alone. So I decided to send a box UPS. Actually it will arrive today, to an address in Arizona, not Mexico...It's a friend who makes the trip constantly and will bring it down to me. It's most of the beads, shoes and sweaters....It weighed a little less than 50lbs is my guess, since I can barley life over 50lbs and I was carrying this. $34- that's pretty good I thought. Definitely worth the drop in stress! Go UPS! I had given about half the beads to Halla- all the plastic ones, but she told me yesterday that she still had most of them in her car and what the hell was she going to do with them. She had given away the ones she planned to, and kept the ones she wanted. Well I sent a msg to Karen at the community center, and asked if they wanted some beads. They make a lot of different things to sell at little wknd markets, things that bring money to women who otherwise might have nothing. I am not creative at all, so I'm not really involved with that side of things and didn't know if they'd want the beads. I just have the people who want to learn English. But she said yes of course- pls send them! She also said my students were excited for me to come back! Yippe cause I'm excited to see them, too! So I think I can fit everything into my suitcases now, so I'm ready to go.
A little tired and worse for wear after yesterday. Yesterday- yuck! I had to have my little procedure. Did I say yuck? It was quick and relatively painless. hmm relative to what? They gave me 3 pills to take beforehand. One was different than the other two. Anyway they gave me a fuzzy head. They were to relieve any anxiety...and they did. My beautiful friend Ramilia took me to the appt- cause I had to take the meds an hour before, and needed to have a ride home, so Ramilia took me and brought me home. An she is an angle. My nurse and my mom! I got to her house and she had cooked for me even tho' I said pls don't, I'll have a sandwhich. Then she had a room ready for me to spend the nite if I didn't feel well after! So we went over, and she came into the appt with me. She held my hand and asked the doctor questions- she was amazing! I was a little looped and so wasn't thinking of any questions. Afterwards we went back to her house and she put me to bed, I wanted to just lay on the couch but she led me to a bedroom. I passed out immediately for over 2 hours! When I got up her hubby was home- I'm also friends with him- and they were eating dinner, so she made me a plate. We ate and talked and laughed. We promised to talk more, and I made her promise to visit me in Mexico. And if hubby is too busy working, then I want just her to come. We have a connection and I think we could sit on the beach and talk for a million hours.
So I got home before I took any more pain pills. I was feeling kinda crappy. Then I took the perescribed qty 2 of the pain pills- I think they're vicodin, they're called "narco", and about an hour later I puked. Yeah that's what pain pills do for me. I'm good on the first dose...and being an addictive type ha ha, look forward to the second dose, and then I always get sick to my stomach. This morning I feel better, but tired. I made a plan to go see my 2 girlfriends Holly & Delores from the dog park, just for a coffee, and maybe nothing else, and then after being up awhile- decided I'm tired. So the last day is the first day I'm not up and out of the house by 9 or 10am. It's almost noon, and I'm in a tshirt and sweats. I made some scrambled eggs for my icky tummy and sat down to write.
I'm hoping this afternoon that Drew, Halla & I are going to go and see Elena once more. That would be great. And she turned 16 yesterday...oooh maybe there's cake haha! Oh maybe we should bring cake...ok it's enough for now. My next post will probly be from home...my Mexico.
As always...viva!
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