Sunday morning and it's hot outside. We really need a screen door cause it's hot in here but windy outside. Yesterday I tried leaving the door open for a little while but the flies send each other text messages that the door is open and something good is inside! It's nice to be home.
I was thinking about my shuttle bus ride from Phoenix to Puerto Penasco, and it's funny, even if I hadn't known I crossed the border, I would have known. At the border we had to disembark the van, walk across the border and get into a another van. A couple of guys loaded our luggage onto a cart and pulled it along. First the American side guy stopped us with a smile, and I was the only person not asked for ID, I was also the only person who was a US citizen. Not sure why he asked to see everybody else's ID's. Everardo says it to arrest any "illegals"....but at the border? Porque? Do they get a commission or something? Not sure what was up with that. Then we walked a few more feet- across the line I guess, and then a couple of Mexican officials walked up. They didn't ask anybody for ID but asked to see in the ice chest on the cart. Actually there were 2 ice chests, and 2 huge pink bakery boxes, but they only asked to see inside 1 ice chest. Then they confiscated a big bag of pigeon food. hmmmmm Well I know you can't bring dog food anymore so maybe bird food falls under the same ruling. Ok so then we jump back in the van and drive a couple of streets down and pick up a few more people so we have a full van. We take off towards home. Yes we are in Mexico! The driver is driving sooooo fast! And he's passing people on hills and corners; ok not really hills, but hilly where you can't see what's coming up. I thought well I'm kinda jammed in here so in a crash I'll probly be ok, Then I thought- uh oh all these windows...and then decided to tell myself...really? is this really what you want to think about? And instead I tried to understand the conversation going on around me, and let it go. We got to Puerto Penasco and started passing cars, and I was laughing- yep I'm home ha ha!!
Sam is very happy with his present; a ball chucker. I got it cause when we're in the park I can't throw the ball very far, but with the chucker, well Sam gets a good workout. I took him to the park and Friday with my book and it was so much easier...oh and reading! I had wanted to bring 4 or 5 books with me, but my suitcase would have been too heavy, so I brought one and knew I could snag a couple at the Alano club. I didn't read even once! I was simply too busy. When I had free time I was on the computer or sleeping...and not much of those, either. Yesterday I simply threw the ball out in the street in front of the house (with the new chucker of course), and tired him out pretty quick cause it was hot. I read all day yesterday tho' and it was nice. I was outside for a while....and NO Everardo didn't put up my hammock yet boo hoo, but I do have a nice lounge chair, but the flies were bugging me and Sam, well he wanted to lay on the cool tile in the house so I gave up after about an hour and came back in....it is all about him right? ha ha Well later today, like after 5pm, we're gonna take Sam down to the beach for me to wade and Everardo to see if anybody wants to buy anything. He called to say it's so hot nobody is on the beach right now. We went grocery shopping last nite and the stores were packed with people waiting to venture out when it got cooler. HA! It's not even hot like Playa Ventura!...yet anyway- I hear it gets really really hot in a couple of months.
I had good news and bad news yesterday and today. First the good news- I'm so happy! My best friend in Playa Ventura had stopped talking to me, even "unfriended" me off FB, because of some cruel gossip down there. Unfortunately in a small town- the gossip runs rampant. Family members stab each other in the back, tell secrets, make stuff up. Say that someone else said or did the act that was so bad. Well that happened to us; I'm sure cause we were the ones who left, and how easy to blame us. I got mad and sent a message telling what had actually transpired. This pitted family members against each other, and that cost me a friendship I treasured. I have felt so bad about it for a couple of months, and then the other day I sent her an apology, written in Spanish by me, no help from hubby. In fact I didn't even tell him, because he told me to just let it go. That if she blamed me, well that was up to her. But I couldn't do that, I just had to try one more time. I told her I was sorry I was even involved and that I missed my amiga. This morning I got a message from her and says it's all ok, we are amigas, we are sisters. I'm so happy. She re-accepted my friendship on fb as well so I'm taking a look at her page and what her family has been up to down there. I'm so glad I reached out.
Ok now the bad news. I read the blog of my niece and she sounded so down, so sad, actually I was pretty worried about her. I sent my brother an email and gave him the blog name and said he should read it, that I knew I was only her aunt but I was going to send her a msg and tell her I was worried about her. So I did. I made some suggestions that she might not have considered, places to look for support, to help her find her way. She is my niece, and although I don't know her very well since she grew up in a different state that me, I love her and care about her. She is the same age as my older daughter and so I often think of her, and her little brother, my nephew. Her mom and I are not close, and I think the mom is not the best influence on her; she has her own issues- anyway I decided to say something, knowing I might risk our relationship (hmmm sound familiar- see above ha ha). Everything I said to her I meant to say with love, but when we're talking to people who don't want to hear it...well...So I got a reply last nite- this was after I sent her several messages- oh and she "unfriended" me as well (see a pattern ha ha). So she wrote me a tore me a new asshole! She was extremely offended & insulted by my messages to her. She didn't need any help for anyone and especially not me. She said I was judging her and I didn't even know her. Well it's too bad, but I stand by what I wrote to her. I replied and apologized if she felt offended and insulted, that that was not my intention at all. But I was not sorry for my suggestions, for wanting to reach out to someone I loved who to me seemed to be in trouble.
So this is the bad news, ok maybe sad news. She will probly not speak to me again, and that's her choice. I will still love her and if she ever changes her mind, I'll be here. I would love if my brother and sisters did the same thing if they saw either of my kids in trouble, or even if a close friend of mine saw it. It's a crazy tough world sometimes, and we all need help. And hey who knows what the future will bring. After all I got my other friend back!!
I tried to go to the morning meeting this morning and nobody was there except a guy down here on a 3 week vacation. Neither of us had a key, so we stood outside and chatted; it was nice. Then, about 20 min to 10am, we had just decided to leave, we said the serenity prayer together, the guy who owns the building walks up and asks what's up. He opened the room for us and we decided to stay the final 20 minutes in case any other alcoholic showed up. The guy read out of the Daily Reflections for today and we talked a little about the steps, and how we felt when we came in. I suspect he has a LOT of years. So it turned out to be nice. Hopefully some of the regulars will show tomorrow morning. I know we lost a couple who had to move back to the states while I was gone, another is on vacation and returns at the end of May. Another guy had business in Tuscon, and that only leaves 2 or 3, and they just didn't come today. We are not a huge group, and we seem to be changing. Arrgghh sometimes I am just not so good with change. It has been an interesting year, lots and lots of change. In less than a month I will have lived in Mexico for a year! I think my theme was acceptance and patience. I would like to go into year two with a theme of hope, but we'll see what the universe has in store for me. I really want to kick my Spanish into high gear- but the truth is, I did no studying in California, spoke very little Spanish, and haven't picked up any of my materials since returning, Oh wait! Not true! Good! I used my workbook to write my apology letter to my friend Chela. And I did send an email to my teacher to let her know I was ready to resume classes on Tuesday, so hopefully we will- this Tuesday.
Ok this is full cycle cause I'm thinking (again) how much we need a screen door! I thought we had one in our house in Ca., but I searched the attic and it wasn't there- the type that is just hanging, no door frame, with magnets to attach the midde together. But I think I'm gonna go sit outside now, maybe start a new book...did I say it was nice to be home?
I was thinking about my shuttle bus ride from Phoenix to Puerto Penasco, and it's funny, even if I hadn't known I crossed the border, I would have known. At the border we had to disembark the van, walk across the border and get into a another van. A couple of guys loaded our luggage onto a cart and pulled it along. First the American side guy stopped us with a smile, and I was the only person not asked for ID, I was also the only person who was a US citizen. Not sure why he asked to see everybody else's ID's. Everardo says it to arrest any "illegals"....but at the border? Porque? Do they get a commission or something? Not sure what was up with that. Then we walked a few more feet- across the line I guess, and then a couple of Mexican officials walked up. They didn't ask anybody for ID but asked to see in the ice chest on the cart. Actually there were 2 ice chests, and 2 huge pink bakery boxes, but they only asked to see inside 1 ice chest. Then they confiscated a big bag of pigeon food. hmmmmm Well I know you can't bring dog food anymore so maybe bird food falls under the same ruling. Ok so then we jump back in the van and drive a couple of streets down and pick up a few more people so we have a full van. We take off towards home. Yes we are in Mexico! The driver is driving sooooo fast! And he's passing people on hills and corners; ok not really hills, but hilly where you can't see what's coming up. I thought well I'm kinda jammed in here so in a crash I'll probly be ok, Then I thought- uh oh all these windows...and then decided to tell myself...really? is this really what you want to think about? And instead I tried to understand the conversation going on around me, and let it go. We got to Puerto Penasco and started passing cars, and I was laughing- yep I'm home ha ha!!
Sam is very happy with his present; a ball chucker. I got it cause when we're in the park I can't throw the ball very far, but with the chucker, well Sam gets a good workout. I took him to the park and Friday with my book and it was so much easier...oh and reading! I had wanted to bring 4 or 5 books with me, but my suitcase would have been too heavy, so I brought one and knew I could snag a couple at the Alano club. I didn't read even once! I was simply too busy. When I had free time I was on the computer or sleeping...and not much of those, either. Yesterday I simply threw the ball out in the street in front of the house (with the new chucker of course), and tired him out pretty quick cause it was hot. I read all day yesterday tho' and it was nice. I was outside for a while....and NO Everardo didn't put up my hammock yet boo hoo, but I do have a nice lounge chair, but the flies were bugging me and Sam, well he wanted to lay on the cool tile in the house so I gave up after about an hour and came back in....it is all about him right? ha ha Well later today, like after 5pm, we're gonna take Sam down to the beach for me to wade and Everardo to see if anybody wants to buy anything. He called to say it's so hot nobody is on the beach right now. We went grocery shopping last nite and the stores were packed with people waiting to venture out when it got cooler. HA! It's not even hot like Playa Ventura!...yet anyway- I hear it gets really really hot in a couple of months.
I had good news and bad news yesterday and today. First the good news- I'm so happy! My best friend in Playa Ventura had stopped talking to me, even "unfriended" me off FB, because of some cruel gossip down there. Unfortunately in a small town- the gossip runs rampant. Family members stab each other in the back, tell secrets, make stuff up. Say that someone else said or did the act that was so bad. Well that happened to us; I'm sure cause we were the ones who left, and how easy to blame us. I got mad and sent a message telling what had actually transpired. This pitted family members against each other, and that cost me a friendship I treasured. I have felt so bad about it for a couple of months, and then the other day I sent her an apology, written in Spanish by me, no help from hubby. In fact I didn't even tell him, because he told me to just let it go. That if she blamed me, well that was up to her. But I couldn't do that, I just had to try one more time. I told her I was sorry I was even involved and that I missed my amiga. This morning I got a message from her and says it's all ok, we are amigas, we are sisters. I'm so happy. She re-accepted my friendship on fb as well so I'm taking a look at her page and what her family has been up to down there. I'm so glad I reached out.
Ok now the bad news. I read the blog of my niece and she sounded so down, so sad, actually I was pretty worried about her. I sent my brother an email and gave him the blog name and said he should read it, that I knew I was only her aunt but I was going to send her a msg and tell her I was worried about her. So I did. I made some suggestions that she might not have considered, places to look for support, to help her find her way. She is my niece, and although I don't know her very well since she grew up in a different state that me, I love her and care about her. She is the same age as my older daughter and so I often think of her, and her little brother, my nephew. Her mom and I are not close, and I think the mom is not the best influence on her; she has her own issues- anyway I decided to say something, knowing I might risk our relationship (hmmm sound familiar- see above ha ha). Everything I said to her I meant to say with love, but when we're talking to people who don't want to hear it...well...So I got a reply last nite- this was after I sent her several messages- oh and she "unfriended" me as well (see a pattern ha ha). So she wrote me a tore me a new asshole! She was extremely offended & insulted by my messages to her. She didn't need any help for anyone and especially not me. She said I was judging her and I didn't even know her. Well it's too bad, but I stand by what I wrote to her. I replied and apologized if she felt offended and insulted, that that was not my intention at all. But I was not sorry for my suggestions, for wanting to reach out to someone I loved who to me seemed to be in trouble.
So this is the bad news, ok maybe sad news. She will probly not speak to me again, and that's her choice. I will still love her and if she ever changes her mind, I'll be here. I would love if my brother and sisters did the same thing if they saw either of my kids in trouble, or even if a close friend of mine saw it. It's a crazy tough world sometimes, and we all need help. And hey who knows what the future will bring. After all I got my other friend back!!
I tried to go to the morning meeting this morning and nobody was there except a guy down here on a 3 week vacation. Neither of us had a key, so we stood outside and chatted; it was nice. Then, about 20 min to 10am, we had just decided to leave, we said the serenity prayer together, the guy who owns the building walks up and asks what's up. He opened the room for us and we decided to stay the final 20 minutes in case any other alcoholic showed up. The guy read out of the Daily Reflections for today and we talked a little about the steps, and how we felt when we came in. I suspect he has a LOT of years. So it turned out to be nice. Hopefully some of the regulars will show tomorrow morning. I know we lost a couple who had to move back to the states while I was gone, another is on vacation and returns at the end of May. Another guy had business in Tuscon, and that only leaves 2 or 3, and they just didn't come today. We are not a huge group, and we seem to be changing. Arrgghh sometimes I am just not so good with change. It has been an interesting year, lots and lots of change. In less than a month I will have lived in Mexico for a year! I think my theme was acceptance and patience. I would like to go into year two with a theme of hope, but we'll see what the universe has in store for me. I really want to kick my Spanish into high gear- but the truth is, I did no studying in California, spoke very little Spanish, and haven't picked up any of my materials since returning, Oh wait! Not true! Good! I used my workbook to write my apology letter to my friend Chela. And I did send an email to my teacher to let her know I was ready to resume classes on Tuesday, so hopefully we will- this Tuesday.
Ok this is full cycle cause I'm thinking (again) how much we need a screen door! I thought we had one in our house in Ca., but I searched the attic and it wasn't there- the type that is just hanging, no door frame, with magnets to attach the midde together. But I think I'm gonna go sit outside now, maybe start a new book...did I say it was nice to be home?
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